20- word vomit?

Hello everybody,
Huimei has had a pretty busy week. Between yanking her braidy accidentally, cursing high heels, waking up at 7 to go to work then wasting her life away entering data, she pretty much hasnt had time for much else.
Except to think until her pea-sized brain is going to absolutely BURST

I can't remember much of sundays sermon, mainly cause I wasnt listening. I hardly do, really. To tell the truth, I can barely remember what was said except that kai min showed us some wierd marching video and delivered the message, and eunice also shared. The main point is- something happened.

Usually in our church, you can tell when an altar calls coming. The sermon ends earlier, Pastor comes on and says smth serious, then he asks to dim the lights, gets someone to play the piano, and dun dun dun dun altar call. And usually, I don't respond. Why should I?
Anyway, rules are meant to be broken, which is why I ended up on my knees at the front that day.
What is your life ambition?

Nothing. I have not the faintest Idea where I'm going now, or what I want to do. All I know is to take one day at a time, and it should work out ok. But now I find myself passing the time pointlessly, wastefully. There is next to nothing to differentate one day from the next. All I'm concerned with is how to make time pass faster so that I can get on to the next day. When I was in that moment, it was ok. I just thought to myself- this is the way life is, no? Our days all blend together in a bunch of memories anyway, its not like each and everyday has to be some sort of milestone, not like something super special or exciting has to happen everyday or smth, cause then if every days exciting then it would all be the same again right.

Its like, I have no reason to complain. Everything in my life may not be great, but the good evens out the bad, a little give and take, a little compromise and it works out ok.

Thing is, I cant go on like this forever.
No one can, especially not someone like me. There is a heavy weight about my neck and till the noose is undone it will keep tightening.
Dont get me wrong, I dont live in its shadow constantly. If I'm happy, I'm happy, if i'm sad, I'm sad, and its not very hard to tell. It just bugs me and gets bigger and uglier.. Till I learn how to cut this gordion knot I can foresee that it will be harder for me to be happy , to be wierd and retarded as usual. I fear that it will be hard for me to be sad even, to feel pain, empathy, anything.
. I am afraid that I wil no longer be myself, and that fear is made worse by the reality that is it could happen.

I in no way imply that I intend to find the meaning of life, or in some way come up with some wierd aspiration to work towards. Obviously any sort of romance would not only fail by far to help, it would also serve to make things worse since I'm into the superficialities of it still, and now is not the time. Material thing are out, duh, along with any (future) academic pursuits. Even my art, poems which used to bite to my core, paintings I could gaze at endlessly , they have stopped touching me now.
feels like I'm fading away. really.
Where is my short, wretched, mortal life going?



Currently Huimei doesnt feel so good. As this can be categorised as a natural disaster, aid in the form of people with dependable shoulders, listening ears, lots of time and lots of patience would be much apprciated. Donations of prayers will also be taken with much gratitude.
Good night.

19: week in short

Thursday night-Clara roped me in for what was supposed to be ushering for alpha, turned out to be WAITRESSING. Complete with the darn aprons. And my nametag said Joanne, since they couldnt be bothered to get a new one for me. YAY.
They also hung these sparkly things from the ceiling, and the whole night I had to control the urge to jump up and see if I could touch them with my head. I, along with joshua and kenny, promptly gave in to that urge the minute everything was cleared away for the night :D heh.
Did I mention that kenny and darren helped clear the food, ALL the food, while we cleared the plates? HAHA people in food-induced comas are fun.

Friday-Meeting in church to discuss church camp. The serve shirt emblem is basically a Gundam Seed character's head with a cross on its forehead! Assigned to host campfire with ................Kenny. Duh. Now typical. Luke and Jack part 2 coming up.

Today, saturday- Watched slumdog ( the leading man can dance=sexy man. Oh and YES the girl is so hot) With bossy , dweebs, and teri and her shorts :D Bossy wasted 5 minutes of our life riding up and down escalators and walking around looking for theatre 6. Movie was excellent, though the ending was a little cheesy. But I just love the surprise bollywood dance at the end, and wish they somehow managed to have more of that in the movie.
When we came out, it was pouring,
and rick immediately went into denial
since he had soccer later. of course, denial soon became reality and he went to fetch kaimin. But not before totally making teris day :D So the 3 of us trailed about, laughing at ugly clothes/people and at debs shoes which revealed two toes in a most hilarious manner. Got my hair braidy thingamajigthinggummun which is wierdly long, and its so pretty :D yae.

Tomorrow, I predict a riot.
JUST KIDDING. I predict church.
I wonder if the two are about the same sometimes?

18:-

I won't say youre blameless, but this time the major fault lies with me.
Must I keep saying it? You know what I mean .
I'm just waiting now.
I hope I never have to sing that song again. You rock my world :)

17: it should be called D-day.

Valentines day!
Totally overrated, commercialised, and cliched.
But not a single year has passed since I entered secondary school that I have not celebrated it (surprise surprise) And this year I gave out SUNFLOWERS heh. Cause bossy says they last longer :D yae.
(21 roses yaeeeeeee)
Usually I have at least a week or twos notice cause SC people are really ON about vday, but not this year. PANICKEDDDDD but heh sunflowies yaeeee
Nice nice carrie woke me up and sent me safely to shers house. Where I got to nap for like 2 hours before packing her bags for her heh. YES I do pack my friends bags cause if I see it and everything in it isnt perfectly straight and aligned my fingers start itching cause my OCD dictates that everything in a suitcase must be PERFECTLY STRAIGHT AND ALIGNED OR MY BRAIN WILL EXPLODE AND THE WORLD WILL FOLLOW. heh. And now I have pretty earrings and bracelets and a cowboy hat and sher has my PUSSY. No, really. Shes supposed to bring my stuffed toy cat with her to aussie when she finds it. And many stars and sand and letters :D heh.
Dinner with her WHOLE family, where I got force fed and amused with AJ heh. And her parents were nice enough to send me home :D
Seriously, it sucks when she leaves cause I dont see her for agesssssss, but I shall concentrate on how happy I'll be to see her again at the end of the year :D love ya babe
Sunday-my grandaddys back at home ! :) its so good to see him recovering.
And i had a traumatising journey back home from church today. At least it was vaguely amusing. :P

16: Misadventures of the Super Simpkins

Recently my life has been shuttling between hospital, home, and job interviews, all at the oddest hours.
But I have a really random story from today.
My uncle, deciding that I could use some exercise and make myself useful, handed me his car keys and asked me to get something from his car. I proceeded out of the hospital room where we had been, and down to the first floor.
Where I promptly got lost.
After ten minutes of wandering in circles, I found out that I had in fact been going the right way in the first place, and walked all the way to the carpark.
Which turned out to be empty.
I panicked, before realising that I was in the carpark next to the one I was supposed to be at, so I crossed the road. I walked up to the car, checked the licence plate to make sure it was the correct one, then pressed the button on the key to unlock the car.
And nothing happened.
Thinking that I might have done something wrong, I pressed the button a few more times.
And still nothing happened.
I checked the licence plate again, and it WAS the right car!
Then it dawned on me.
My family owns two cars, and that morning both my uncle and mom had seperately driven to the hospital. The car I had been trying to unlock DID belong to my family, but it was my mum's, not my uncles car -.-
After stupidly running about looking for my uncle's car, I found it, and this time it unlocked the first time I pressed the button.
I happily opened the door..................
and realised I had no idea what I was supposed to retrieve.


(In case you were wondering, yes, I managed to get back to the room safely without getting lost, and I did remember what I was supposed to get, and yes I locked the car)

And this was accomplished while I was talking to sher on my handphone, and running screaming across the roads in fear of being run over and being stared at by the general populace. How invigorating.

15: I know what you did last week

YEEE-HAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

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In other news, my grandfather got admitted to hospital on thursday, and yes it was nasty. Awakening to your mother banging on your door going " wake up! We're taking your grandfather to hospital!" is not an ideal way to start the morning.

But he's on the mend now, so alls well that ends well. Thanks a bunch to all who prayed for him/entertained me :D

Went to shers house on wednesday :D haha so fun getting lost in Kovan and seeing all the wierd people. And SOON SOON PORRIDGE haha that was super retarded!

Tomorrow shall be barbeque day- helping out in church. Oh the joys of half charred-half raw meat :P

14- anywhere with you

(hey Aaron, lets go back to the grand canyon, I've got so much to share with you)
(love ya miss ya wanna kiss ya steal your cat and we can go for the insane mountain bike ride youve promised me forever!)

From the other aaron, I will always remember this. You're no longer in my life, but you are a part of it anyway.

Back to the street where we began,
Feeling as good as lovers can, you know,
Now we're feeling so good.

Picking up things we shouldn't read,
Looks like the end of history as we know,
It's just the end of the world.

Back to the street where we began,
Feeling as good as love, you could, you can.

Into a place, where thoughts can bloom,
Into a room where it's nine in the afternoon ,
And we know that it could be,
And we know that it should,
And you know that you feel it too,
'Cause it's nine in the afternoon.

And your eyes are the size of the moon,
You could 'cause you can so you do,
We're feeling so good,
Just the way that we do
When it's nine in the afternoon .

Your eyes are the size of the moon,
You could 'cause you can so you do,
We're feeling so good.

Back to the street,
Down to our feet,
Losing the feeling of feeling unique,
Do you know what I mean?

Back to the place,
Where we used to say,
Man it feels good to feel this way,
Now I know what I mean.

Back to the street, back to the place,
Back to the room where it all began,
Back to the room where it all began,
'Cause it's nine in the afternoon.

And your eyes are the size of the moon,
You could 'cause you can so you do,
We're feeling so good,
Just the way that we do,
When it's nine in the afternoon.

Your eyes are the size of the moon,
You could 'cause you can so you do,
We're feeling so good,
Just the way that we do,
When it's nine in the afternoon,

Your eyes are the size of the moon,
You could 'cause you can so you do,
We're feeling so good,
Just the way that we do,
When it's nine in the afternoon.

13- chinese cholo?

I have just realised how much Ching belittled his abilities in kendo when he told us about them O.0
wooooooooo mon amigo :) I believe you can protect me from anything, even blows to the head (jump! haha)

For my personal Leonardo, thanks for always being such a fun, cheery person I can always count on to make time for me :)

(and for letting me call you cute :D )

12: Ears, NOW

High tide or Low tide:

Some people may think its a boring song, but I find it extremely comforting. Puts one in mind of a late night spent talking with a loved one :)

For sher -

Stand:

You are stronger then you think you are.

11: HARPEENESSS

O level results are out, I got 14! yae haha I'm quite happy with it, since its half my prelim score :P
This calls for a happy ahlian face!

Mock me if you must -.-
But this post shall be full of pictures to make up for the lack of them in previous ones!

Goober day!


Where cass smartly takes a photo of kueh



And then one of me. (doesnt she look happy!)


Skateboarding ( haha) at Cheryls

Wonderful insanely good blueberry cheesecake cheong made :D



That THING next to the TV is her friggin DVD player. We all thought it was a toaster or smth -.-




Sibs strongly believes in zi-pai moments




Which lead to us dubbing this the ahlian chair


Which lead to these photos...........

Sibs succumbs first





Then cheryl (ohnoes worhXzzXZXX)

Then its my turn

DOULS ULTIMATE VEG OUT FACE HAHAHAHAHAHAH

(sorry dear, its too good to resist)

I saw this in the airport, and I wonder................

Is it possible to have earrings with no ears?

Tiny cute squishy monkey I brought along with me heh


And took pictures of everywhere,

(the airport staff thought I was crazy)

And everybody, meet shawn. Who looks way better in real life when he SMILES.


Church christmas party thingy

Dont we look so HARPEEEEE?

Dont you just hate it when the camera flash scares you?

Thats all, I'm very happy now :D

TIME TO JOB HUNT